Volver! Volver! The desert makes all things clear again! Back from my New Mexican vacation, and I am inspired, motivated, and energized....if not a little unsure as to where to start. Reminded why this is my path, the mesas spoke clearly to my sense of calling. Invigorated by the crystal clear air and the wet red clay, out of the aspen forests and the bushes full of bright, plump rose hips, mats of mushrooms and fans of burdock leaves - I return to central Texas, somewhat hesitantly, and already longing for my home. But I recognize the opportunity I have here, it is why I've stayed this long, and not to take full advantage of it would be a lazy mistake. So into the apothecary I go, with new methods of formulations, into the cracked yellow forest of the city and its surrounding areas I go, to sit with the plants, and understand that the dry bleak state of things and this deplorable air that is not fit to breathe, is hurting them too. My biggest challenge is not to get bogged down by the responsibilities that I only am bound to by financial necessity and keep my path clear and in sight. I want to learn, to make, to thrive, WITH the plants, not from them. I still have so much to learn, so much to do, so much to LEARN! I must be quiet, and compartmentalize my time into working for money, and working towards everything else. Someday, dear self, you will be free! If you rise to the call now, genuinely, and diligently, you will one day be free.
